Monday, March 28, 2005
Friday, March 25, 2005
Step Three
Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him.
Friday nights are my favorite nights! I go to my AA meetings,and get all energized!
The topic tonight was "Loneliness", and everyone shares what they feel.
I shared that I was married for 13 years and sobered up in June and left my husband in July. I was sitting on my balcony crying my eyes out and realized I wasn't crying because I left my husband, I was crying because I no longer had drinks to come home to! DANG! Now what am I gonna do?
I was very busy in those days working as a bartender, just hired on at Island Transit, and working part time on the ambulance, I was also involved three nights a week in the volunteer Fire Department and going to AA meetings. But I was hollow inside and scared to death! I would come home and feel so lonely and scared. I would go to bed at night and go to sleep in fear of death.
When I finally got a sponsor and started working the 12 steps I got stuck on the third step! Turning my will over to God?! I was in control of my life, what are they talking about? How can I do that? I needed to work hard and get benefits to take care of me when I get old.
One night I finally got on my knees and prayed to a God that I didn't know very well. He was up on a dusty shelf. I have heard about Him but didn't let Him inside me.
I can't remember when it "hit" me, but I remember one day waking up and realized that I fell asleep in comfort the night before. I wasn't shaking in fear. I am not alone. I feel loved. When I feel like talking to someone, I pick up the phone and call some gals on my AA list and chat.
I started going to Church pretty regular about three years ago and I have witnessed some miracles. I never thought in my wildest dreams that I would be one. I have actually had two miracles happen to me. One was almost 18 years ago when I took my last drink, and the second was three weeeks ago when my Bible study group "annointed me and prayed over me for my health because I have been sick for two months and feeling lousy, not breathing well, gaining weight and just plain yucky!
Well I have been off insulin for a week now. I can walk without huffing and puffing! My allergies haven't hit me yet, my back is feeling better, and I am generally going to work in a GREAT mood!
Praise the Lord!
I have a problem when people ask me what I have done different, and I tell them "Nothing, then tell them about the prayer". I get some weird responses. "the power of positive thinking is true"..."If you pray to that tree you can get the same response". But I know inside it was the healing power of the Holy Spirit and I pray it stays with me. I am not stupid, I won't go out and eat candy and be foolish. I know I have Diabetes, but since I have been off insulin I feel great! I believe it was the insulin that made me gain 100 pounds and made me huff and puff!
I have a long hard journey ahead of me, but sure got a great "kick start"!
Whew, I'm through blabbing!
If you don't talk to your cat about catnip.....who will?
Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him.
Friday nights are my favorite nights! I go to my AA meetings,and get all energized!
The topic tonight was "Loneliness", and everyone shares what they feel.
I shared that I was married for 13 years and sobered up in June and left my husband in July. I was sitting on my balcony crying my eyes out and realized I wasn't crying because I left my husband, I was crying because I no longer had drinks to come home to! DANG! Now what am I gonna do?
I was very busy in those days working as a bartender, just hired on at Island Transit, and working part time on the ambulance, I was also involved three nights a week in the volunteer Fire Department and going to AA meetings. But I was hollow inside and scared to death! I would come home and feel so lonely and scared. I would go to bed at night and go to sleep in fear of death.
When I finally got a sponsor and started working the 12 steps I got stuck on the third step! Turning my will over to God?! I was in control of my life, what are they talking about? How can I do that? I needed to work hard and get benefits to take care of me when I get old.
One night I finally got on my knees and prayed to a God that I didn't know very well. He was up on a dusty shelf. I have heard about Him but didn't let Him inside me.
I can't remember when it "hit" me, but I remember one day waking up and realized that I fell asleep in comfort the night before. I wasn't shaking in fear. I am not alone. I feel loved. When I feel like talking to someone, I pick up the phone and call some gals on my AA list and chat.
I started going to Church pretty regular about three years ago and I have witnessed some miracles. I never thought in my wildest dreams that I would be one. I have actually had two miracles happen to me. One was almost 18 years ago when I took my last drink, and the second was three weeeks ago when my Bible study group "annointed me and prayed over me for my health because I have been sick for two months and feeling lousy, not breathing well, gaining weight and just plain yucky!
Well I have been off insulin for a week now. I can walk without huffing and puffing! My allergies haven't hit me yet, my back is feeling better, and I am generally going to work in a GREAT mood!
Praise the Lord!
I have a problem when people ask me what I have done different, and I tell them "Nothing, then tell them about the prayer". I get some weird responses. "the power of positive thinking is true"..."If you pray to that tree you can get the same response". But I know inside it was the healing power of the Holy Spirit and I pray it stays with me. I am not stupid, I won't go out and eat candy and be foolish. I know I have Diabetes, but since I have been off insulin I feel great! I believe it was the insulin that made me gain 100 pounds and made me huff and puff!
I have a long hard journey ahead of me, but sure got a great "kick start"!
Whew, I'm through blabbing!
If you don't talk to your cat about catnip.....who will?
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
Is that the Easter Bunny?
I have had a weird week.
What else is new, huh?
There is a neighbor two trailers down from me that is a pervert. He is a drug addict and sexual pervert! His wife finally got smart (after being held captive and beaten at her own house by her weird husband) and escaped with the kids and she is in another State now. Well there has been a car parked in front of his trailer now for over a week, and I just had a bad feeling. I asked the next door neighbor if he has seen any action over there, and he said come to think of it, no!
It is VERY unusual for him to have his curatins closed. He likes to walk around naked in full view of anyone he hopes is looking. I called the town Marshall today and told him "I know I read way too many detective books, but this guy might have a woman captive there". The Marshall said they have been keeping an eye on the place and ran the plates on the car and the woman lives there now and they both are on State assistance which is illegal.
Well I got a call today from a friend and she was worried about the weird guy that another friend of ours is going to marry! Then it all came together in my head! OMG it's Terry! So I called her 95 year old father who is deaf, so asked to talk with his wife. The wife is really nice. I told her my suspicions, and she said "that's odd, because every time I try to call Terry at the house she is at, he hears every thing I say. there are speakers all over the house on the phone"!
She also said that Terry cannot check the phone messages at her house without him there. Hmm. I said well don't you think that is strange??? She said well yes! I told her all about the guy's past and told her that her daughter is in danger!!I gave her the town Marshalls name and phone number and told her to call him and report that she suspects her step daughter being held captive!!
Well at least it will give the cops a valid reason to go check on her and search the house.
If she chooses to stay with him, I can guarantee she will be dead within months!
DANG!!! All she wants is for some nice man to come sweep her off her feet and take care of her and now she is hooked up with this insane pervert!
I am afraid of the guy or I would go knocking on the door to go get her and drag her to detox (again). But I care about and love all my friends and it rips my heart out when I see a perfectly nice person get swept up in drugs and alcohol and freaks!
I am Soooo lucky I never got that bad! I have too much of a free spirit mind to need to be taken care of. (But it would be nice)......Naw!
Have a great Wednesday everyone!!
Life is unfair...I've gone from hiding the "kotex" in the shopping cart, to hiding "poise". For all you younguns out there poise is a pad for bladder control!! You know, when you sneeze and drip, or laugh really hard? No...you don't, do you? Dang. just wait, you'll find out!
I have had a weird week.
What else is new, huh?
There is a neighbor two trailers down from me that is a pervert. He is a drug addict and sexual pervert! His wife finally got smart (after being held captive and beaten at her own house by her weird husband) and escaped with the kids and she is in another State now. Well there has been a car parked in front of his trailer now for over a week, and I just had a bad feeling. I asked the next door neighbor if he has seen any action over there, and he said come to think of it, no!
It is VERY unusual for him to have his curatins closed. He likes to walk around naked in full view of anyone he hopes is looking. I called the town Marshall today and told him "I know I read way too many detective books, but this guy might have a woman captive there". The Marshall said they have been keeping an eye on the place and ran the plates on the car and the woman lives there now and they both are on State assistance which is illegal.
Well I got a call today from a friend and she was worried about the weird guy that another friend of ours is going to marry! Then it all came together in my head! OMG it's Terry! So I called her 95 year old father who is deaf, so asked to talk with his wife. The wife is really nice. I told her my suspicions, and she said "that's odd, because every time I try to call Terry at the house she is at, he hears every thing I say. there are speakers all over the house on the phone"!
She also said that Terry cannot check the phone messages at her house without him there. Hmm. I said well don't you think that is strange??? She said well yes! I told her all about the guy's past and told her that her daughter is in danger!!I gave her the town Marshalls name and phone number and told her to call him and report that she suspects her step daughter being held captive!!
Well at least it will give the cops a valid reason to go check on her and search the house.
If she chooses to stay with him, I can guarantee she will be dead within months!
DANG!!! All she wants is for some nice man to come sweep her off her feet and take care of her and now she is hooked up with this insane pervert!
I am afraid of the guy or I would go knocking on the door to go get her and drag her to detox (again). But I care about and love all my friends and it rips my heart out when I see a perfectly nice person get swept up in drugs and alcohol and freaks!
I am Soooo lucky I never got that bad! I have too much of a free spirit mind to need to be taken care of. (But it would be nice)......Naw!
Have a great Wednesday everyone!!
Life is unfair...I've gone from hiding the "kotex" in the shopping cart, to hiding "poise". For all you younguns out there poise is a pad for bladder control!! You know, when you sneeze and drip, or laugh really hard? No...you don't, do you? Dang. just wait, you'll find out!
Sunday, March 20, 2005
Yikes!! It sure is WINDY!!
Severe Weather Bulletin
Your MyKOMO4Cast has this important weather alert from the KOMO 4 Weather Center.
11:23 PM PST Sat-Mar-19
The National Weather Service has issued a HIGH WIND WARNING
Washington counties
Island, Jefferson, Whatcom
Well thank you very much! I went to bed at 11:00!!
I woke up around 5:00 this morning hearing my beautiful tarp ripping and flying in the wind!! If I would have known it was going to be blowing at hurricane force winds I would have covered the stuff with a camping tarp and taken the good gazebo tarp down!
DANG! Now I need to figure out how I can repair and strengthen the tarp! I love a good challenge anyway!
So Spring is really Blowing in and March is going out like a mad Lion!!
Why is "bra" singular and "panties" plural?
Severe Weather Bulletin
Your MyKOMO4Cast has this important weather alert from the KOMO 4 Weather Center.
11:23 PM PST Sat-Mar-19
The National Weather Service has issued a HIGH WIND WARNING
Washington counties
Island, Jefferson, Whatcom
Well thank you very much! I went to bed at 11:00!!
I woke up around 5:00 this morning hearing my beautiful tarp ripping and flying in the wind!! If I would have known it was going to be blowing at hurricane force winds I would have covered the stuff with a camping tarp and taken the good gazebo tarp down!
DANG! Now I need to figure out how I can repair and strengthen the tarp! I love a good challenge anyway!
So Spring is really Blowing in and March is going out like a mad Lion!!
Why is "bra" singular and "panties" plural?
Saturday, March 19, 2005
Hey, One more week until Easter!!
Tomorrow is Palm Sunday, also the first day of Spring.
Not much for me to post today.
I bought a new bed yesterday and I had to put a stool next to it in able to get in bed!! It is a pedalstal bed with 6 drawers on each side and one of those new "Ther-A-Pedic mattress. No box springs needed.
Well I am SO SORE today because it is firm but also conforms to your body for a healthier sleep. I'll give it a week.
I'd take a picture but my room is in such dissaray (a mess) I'm ashamed!
Have a great Saturday!!
Why do doctors leave the room while you change? They're going to see you
naked anyway.
Tomorrow is Palm Sunday, also the first day of Spring.
Not much for me to post today.
I bought a new bed yesterday and I had to put a stool next to it in able to get in bed!! It is a pedalstal bed with 6 drawers on each side and one of those new "Ther-A-Pedic mattress. No box springs needed.
Well I am SO SORE today because it is firm but also conforms to your body for a healthier sleep. I'll give it a week.
I'd take a picture but my room is in such dissaray (a mess) I'm ashamed!
Have a great Saturday!!
Why do doctors leave the room while you change? They're going to see you
naked anyway.
Thursday, March 17, 2005
Tuesday, March 15, 2005
Notebook
Have you seen the movie "Notebook" yet?
Starring James Garner, Gena Rowlands, Ryan Gosling & Rachel McAdams
See it!
Get a box of kleenex and watch every minute of it!
I had to watch it twice because I missed the first part.
That's all, folks!
Starring James Garner, Gena Rowlands, Ryan Gosling & Rachel McAdams
See it!
Get a box of kleenex and watch every minute of it!
I had to watch it twice because I missed the first part.
That's all, folks!
Monday, March 14, 2005
Sunday, March 13, 2005
5 Questions
Okay, I'll play. Leslie sent me these questions for me to answer.:
1. Finish this sentence:
If I had known then what I know now:
I wouldn't change a thing! It would make me a different person, and I like who I am.
2. What one thing do like the most about yourself?
My daring sense of humor.
3. Describe in detail what would be your perfect day.
Wake up at 10:00 AM with no pain and jump on the Alaska State Ferry in Bellingham and return a week later.
4. Would you want to know the exact date of your death?
Absolutely not!
5. Who had the most influence on you in your childhood and in what ways did they influence you?
Ted Christianson. He was a druggist in Coupeville and Hired me when I was 16 and on probation for stealing. He asked me if I'd like to work there and I told him I was on probation but he hired me anyway. He trusted me and gave me a chance in life. He was an adult that gave kids a chance.
Happy Monday everyone!
1. Finish this sentence:
If I had known then what I know now:
I wouldn't change a thing! It would make me a different person, and I like who I am.
2. What one thing do like the most about yourself?
My daring sense of humor.
3. Describe in detail what would be your perfect day.
Wake up at 10:00 AM with no pain and jump on the Alaska State Ferry in Bellingham and return a week later.
4. Would you want to know the exact date of your death?
Absolutely not!
5. Who had the most influence on you in your childhood and in what ways did they influence you?
Ted Christianson. He was a druggist in Coupeville and Hired me when I was 16 and on probation for stealing. He asked me if I'd like to work there and I told him I was on probation but he hired me anyway. He trusted me and gave me a chance in life. He was an adult that gave kids a chance.
Happy Monday everyone!
Saturday, March 12, 2005
What a week!
Whew!
I'm sorry...I have been going going going!
Now I am too pooped to blog and tomorrow is SUNDAY!!!
What happened?????
Hope everyone had a great week, an trust me, I will catch up on my blogging soon!
Once you're in heaven, do you get stuck wearing the clothes you were buried in for eternity?
I'm sorry...I have been going going going!
Now I am too pooped to blog and tomorrow is SUNDAY!!!
What happened?????
Hope everyone had a great week, an trust me, I will catch up on my blogging soon!
Once you're in heaven, do you get stuck wearing the clothes you were buried in for eternity?
Monday, March 07, 2005
I love Sundays!
My sister got home and asked me what I did today, so I told her I went to Church, then I had my small group 12 step study at my houseuntil 1:30, took a nap until 5:00 then went to a meeting at the Pastors house on how we are doing at our new Church. I got home around 8:30 or so. She got mad and said "YOU AREN"T SUPPOSED TO DO ANYTHING FOR A FEW DAYS"!!
So that is my post.
P.S. My back is getting better!!
Praise the Lord!!
Since bread is square, then why is sandwich meat round?
My sister got home and asked me what I did today, so I told her I went to Church, then I had my small group 12 step study at my houseuntil 1:30, took a nap until 5:00 then went to a meeting at the Pastors house on how we are doing at our new Church. I got home around 8:30 or so. She got mad and said "YOU AREN"T SUPPOSED TO DO ANYTHING FOR A FEW DAYS"!!
So that is my post.
P.S. My back is getting better!!
Praise the Lord!!
Since bread is square, then why is sandwich meat round?
Thursday, March 03, 2005
Anointing
Ok, I like to share my good times and bad times on this blog. Like it or not, it is what has happened in my life. Most of you know I lived a pretty wild life of an alcoholic for 20 years and now for almost 18 years (June 21 will be 18) I have been sober.
I found a nice little funky Church "Christ the King" I like to go to. I was Baptized on June 21 2003.
I don't go preaching to people to save yourselves and repent, (although at times certain people think I do) hehehehe. I just get all excited when something neat happens in my life and I like to share my fun!
Well I have been dealing with horrendous pain down my left leg for two months now, and it has become unbearable! I finally went to the doctor and had an MRI done and was given the choice to have an epidural steroid injection in my back. I had one before and it worked wonders for 4 months, so I said YES!
Well I had it done Tuesday morning, and yesterday I was hurting just as bad and was feeling sorry for myself.
Well amazing things happened to me yesterday!
#1 I was talking with my sister on the phone and told her how bad I felt, and I looked out at the sky and there was a cloud that looked liked the head of a snowman with a big smile on his face like he was saying "Don't Worry, Be Happy"! I yelled at it to shut the heck up!! hehehehe well I don't think those were my exact words.
Anyway, I then thought it was funny and asked for forgiveness for my potty mouth and felt a little better.
#2 I got a knock at my door at 5:30 and there were two little 11 year old Mexican boys on my porch, and I said "ok, what're you selling"? , and they said nothing, here's some flowers for you because we think you are a nice lady! Aww, Gee! I asked them in and gave them each a hug and told them I was feeling sorry for myself and they came by at the right moment for me! I offered them a coke and we were visiting when my Bible study group showed up. They knew I was hurting so they came to my house instead of having me go sit on the hard chairs. I introduced the kids to them and the kids left. (They came back tonight and played Scrabble with me).
#3 My friend Deb asked if I would mind if they anointed me and pray to God to heal me. Well I was embarrassed but very honored so I said sure. I have never seen that done before. They each (4) put oil on their fingers and made a cross like sign on my forehead and layed their hands on me and prayed for God to heal me, and to take the pain from my body. I was awed by the gesture! As they said the prayer I could smell the oil and it was wonderful! I did not wash my forehead last night! Well the pain did not go away like that so we went on to read the next chapter in the Bible that we were on . I read ACTS 3 Peter heals the crippled Beggar! We all looked up and we all got the goosebumps! Let me tell you that was weird!
I went to work today and two people asked if I felt better because I don't have that stressed out look on my face like I have had. Hmmmm.
I just HAD to share this with you!!
I'm getting into swing dancing.
Not on purpose...some parts of my body are just prone to swinging.
Ok, I like to share my good times and bad times on this blog. Like it or not, it is what has happened in my life. Most of you know I lived a pretty wild life of an alcoholic for 20 years and now for almost 18 years (June 21 will be 18) I have been sober.
I found a nice little funky Church "Christ the King" I like to go to. I was Baptized on June 21 2003.
I don't go preaching to people to save yourselves and repent, (although at times certain people think I do) hehehehe. I just get all excited when something neat happens in my life and I like to share my fun!
Well I have been dealing with horrendous pain down my left leg for two months now, and it has become unbearable! I finally went to the doctor and had an MRI done and was given the choice to have an epidural steroid injection in my back. I had one before and it worked wonders for 4 months, so I said YES!
Well I had it done Tuesday morning, and yesterday I was hurting just as bad and was feeling sorry for myself.
Well amazing things happened to me yesterday!
#1 I was talking with my sister on the phone and told her how bad I felt, and I looked out at the sky and there was a cloud that looked liked the head of a snowman with a big smile on his face like he was saying "Don't Worry, Be Happy"! I yelled at it to shut the heck up!! hehehehe well I don't think those were my exact words.
Anyway, I then thought it was funny and asked for forgiveness for my potty mouth and felt a little better.
#2 I got a knock at my door at 5:30 and there were two little 11 year old Mexican boys on my porch, and I said "ok, what're you selling"? , and they said nothing, here's some flowers for you because we think you are a nice lady! Aww, Gee! I asked them in and gave them each a hug and told them I was feeling sorry for myself and they came by at the right moment for me! I offered them a coke and we were visiting when my Bible study group showed up. They knew I was hurting so they came to my house instead of having me go sit on the hard chairs. I introduced the kids to them and the kids left. (They came back tonight and played Scrabble with me).
#3 My friend Deb asked if I would mind if they anointed me and pray to God to heal me. Well I was embarrassed but very honored so I said sure. I have never seen that done before. They each (4) put oil on their fingers and made a cross like sign on my forehead and layed their hands on me and prayed for God to heal me, and to take the pain from my body. I was awed by the gesture! As they said the prayer I could smell the oil and it was wonderful! I did not wash my forehead last night! Well the pain did not go away like that so we went on to read the next chapter in the Bible that we were on . I read ACTS 3 Peter heals the crippled Beggar! We all looked up and we all got the goosebumps! Let me tell you that was weird!
I went to work today and two people asked if I felt better because I don't have that stressed out look on my face like I have had. Hmmmm.
I just HAD to share this with you!!
I'm getting into swing dancing.
Not on purpose...some parts of my body are just prone to swinging.
Wednesday, March 02, 2005
Owie!
Okay, I was waiting to tell everyone I had the Epidural Steroid Injection on Tuesday and it went well and I am back dancing!
Well POOP!! The only dancing I'm doing is trying to get to the bathroom!
I am feeling a bit better though. So I will update later! Thanks for the prayers everyone!!
Why do the Alphabet song and Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star have the same tune?
Okay, I was waiting to tell everyone I had the Epidural Steroid Injection on Tuesday and it went well and I am back dancing!
Well POOP!! The only dancing I'm doing is trying to get to the bathroom!
I am feeling a bit better though. So I will update later! Thanks for the prayers everyone!!
Why do the Alphabet song and Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star have the same tune?